Do you set a phrase for yourself in the new year or are you one of those who take the days as they come?
Personally, I may be a mix of both. I like to know that there is a compass when I need one, but there are days when I just let it be what it is. Stepping into 2021 holds a lot of temptation to let loose, forget any discipline, boundaries, rules and ambitions. I mean after the year we’ve had, you’d think we’d be allowed to let loose.
But let’s be honest, that’s the worst thing we could do. Trust me, I couldn’t even convince myself of its benefit. It’s the quickest way to ruin any upward mobility you were experiencing before. While I’m a huge advocate for rest, I don’t quite subscribe to letting loose and letting the ship sail where it so desires.
This year, I feel up for a bit of internal gardening. Some weeding and planting. So one of my phrases for the year is ‘Gazing Inward’. I’m in that self-discovery, self-actualisation, self-understanding, and so many other self-centred phrases season. Some may say I’m coming into myself, becoming if you may. Part of the intrigue for me however is the contentment that I’m feeling with who I am right now. Not wanting anything, needing a lot of things, imperfect, growing, flawed, alive. Suddenly this version of me is enough. And, as I look inward I am carrying some bandages to mend the spaces where I’ve ever believed that this – I mean ALL of this, was not enough.
So going into the new year, I’ve decided to keep me and get to know her a little better. To remember to be in the moment, with myself and with others. To remember kindness towards myself and others. To be patient and intentional with myself and others.
I really doubt I will change much. My ambitions remain, my convictions are steadfast. Whatever changes come will only be because I’m growing. I’ve learned (for the most part) what works for me, what I stand for, what I don’t; what I have energy for, and what I don’t; what I will spend my time on and what I won’t. I’m keeping what works and adjusting what I am uncertain of.
We tend to over complicate life at times. It’s the chase, the wanting to be better. The online pressure. I do believe however, that at this stage in my life, I should be doing very little figuring out and very much living. This is my general mood summed up for the year.
I wish you nothing but positivity, laughter – tons of laughter, abundant and extravagant love and loads of mentionable memories this year. Above all else, may this be the year you live.
xoxo
