Gazing inward

Gazing inward

Do you set a phrase for yourself in the new year or are you one of those who take the days as they come?

Personally, I may be a mix of both. I like to know that there is a compass when I need one, but there are days when I just let it be what it is. Stepping into 2021 holds a lot of temptation to let loose, forget any discipline, boundaries, rules and ambitions. I mean after the year we’ve had, you’d think we’d be allowed to let loose.

But let’s be honest, that’s the worst thing we could do. Trust me, I couldn’t even convince myself of its benefit. It’s the quickest way to ruin any upward mobility you were experiencing before. While I’m a huge advocate for rest, I don’t quite subscribe to letting loose and letting the ship sail where it so desires.

This year, I feel up for a bit of internal gardening. Some weeding and planting. So one of my phrases for the year is ‘Gazing Inward’. I’m in that self-discovery, self-actualisation, self-understanding, and so many other self-centred phrases season. Some may say I’m coming into myself, becoming if you may. Part of the intrigue for me however is the contentment that I’m feeling with who I am right now. Not wanting anything, needing a lot of things, imperfect, growing, flawed, alive. Suddenly this version of me is enough. And, as I look inward I am carrying some bandages to mend the spaces where I’ve ever believed that this – I mean ALL of this, was not enough.

So going into the new year, I’ve decided to keep me and get to know her a little better. To remember to be in the moment, with myself and with others. To remember kindness towards myself and others. To be patient and intentional with myself and others.

Take a moment to enjoy the moment.

I really doubt I will change much. My ambitions remain, my convictions are steadfast. Whatever changes come will only be because I’m growing. I’ve learned (for the most part) what works for me, what I stand for, what I don’t; what I have energy for, and what I don’t; what I will spend my time on and what I won’t. I’m keeping what works and adjusting what I am uncertain of.

We tend to over complicate life at times. It’s the chase, the wanting to be better. The online pressure. I do believe however, that at this stage in my life, I should be doing very little figuring out and very much living. This is my general mood summed up for the year.

Keep what works.

I wish you nothing but positivity, laughter – tons of laughter, abundant and extravagant love and loads of mentionable memories this year. Above all else, may this be the year you live.


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